Flow of Change

These days and times are feeling very fluid to me.  I missed my post in March because so much was shifting and in flux.  My current experience is one of chronological time merging with fluid activity, causing these days to unfold in their own way, in their own time, on a Higher timeline schedule.  Linear time is becoming wavy time, moving like a meandering river, sometimes flowing out of its banks.  This feels so right to me, because we are beginning to see the shift from polarized life to whatever the alternative life looks like.  In my own life, my inner characters have made peace and they are working together, even if that process is in its early growth stages.  My own position is to stay open to this flow of change, to stay centered and grounded, and to allow for continual change and movement.  Everything is unfolding as it has been organically created to do so.  We are the facilitators of change and the holders of space.

"The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it and join the dance."

                                --Alan Watts

"You will find that it is necessary to let things go; simply for the reason that they are heavy."

                                --C. JoyBell      

Keeping On

These days feel to me like times of distraction and chaos. That isn't the only reality, but it's the one that continually invites me to be pulled into.  I sometimes choose to ignore the noise and upheaval.  Still, I find that I can manage these days best if I stay connected to my deep inner self and stay true to my heart.  

Since this is often easier said than done, I reflected on activities that work to keep me grounded within myself. These practices came to mind when I listened for ways to stay balanced in the midst of Large Change:

>Spend time in nature and notice the true beauty of the natural world.  I can let this energy soothe and nourish me.

>Pay attention to moments in my day that allow me to have an awareness of Radiance.  I'll watch how the sun illuminates every small or large thing and brings warmth on chilly days.  Receiving someone's smile has the same effect.

>Cultivate satisfaction and joy in my life.  I can choose to participate in the things that I love to do and keep my creative self alive and happy.

>Fill my heart with Love.  By inviting in and expressing my love of Spirit, loved ones, pets, plants, friends and neighbors.

I am an advocate for each individual moving closer every day to the person that I/we most want to be. That is our true self and our reason for being. It feels like that's what we came here to do in Life.  Enjoy yourself and the path you are walking.

"Grandfather says this: 'Being strong...means to keep looking for the answer though the darkness of despair is all around.  It means to cling to hope for one more heartbeat, one more sunrise.  Each step takes you closer to the top of the hill, closer to the light of the next sunrise, and the promise of a new day.'  Grandfather says this:  'Keep going.' " 

                 --Joseph M. Marshall III     

  

   

 

Regroup and Reset

Okay, what just happened? It's February today, and January flew like the wind!  So I'm catching up on my January post now.  This last month felt like a time of release and reset.  For me, so many energies and thoughts passed through and away.  And then new feelings and experiences of Love and Purpose flooded in.  In our area we had a very intense ice storm about mid-month that whittled everything down to the essentials.  Without electricity for several days It was a time of reckoning:  what's most important, what can I do without, and where do I go from here?  While all of those questions are still simmering, I was able to feel very peaceful and protected during that weather event.  And so it is, as we trek into this new year, already filled with world chaos.  These shifting times are insisting that we make choices about where we focus our attention and our energies.  I am personally choosing to put my energies into the feelings of peace and provision that I experienced during our ice storm.  No matter what events happen in our world, we have choice about how we will respond to them.  Do we want to participate in anxiety and fear, or do we want to nurture and live in the security of knowing that there is a peaceful foundation available to all?  We are all connected--to each other, and to our Source.  Now is a good time to bring our best energies to the people and situations that we encounter in daily life.  Life is good, and it can always be well-lived.

"Live your life in your own unique way and be true to yourself."

                 --Josei Toda

"You don't always need a plan.  Sometimes you just need to breathe, trust, let go, and see what happens."

                 --Mandy Hale

            

                                        

Breathing

Breathing out the Old.  Breathing in the New.  Feels like this is a time of things shifting.  We have been through so much this past year.  We are opening to better things happening with the fresh new calendar year.  I feel relief personally to be letting go of 2023.  And I am investing great energy into the promise of 2024. Together we will help each other move into places of shared community.  We are moving forward into our best possible outcomes.  Joy is definitely in the mix. 

"As the clock strikes midnight let us not just mark a new year; but ignite the flames of hope within our hearts, kindling the path to transformation."

                   --Aloo Denish Obiero          

Learning

I am learning how to be in this process of creating my new story.  Many thoughts are swirling about where to focus my energies.  The most helpful approach for me is to stay rooted in my self, and to listen for what are the most important items in each moment.  There is so much to learn and to experience in a different way.  This is great!  And it  will happen for me as it is meant to happen.  I will stay grounded and present, knowing that this is the advent of a wonderful time of growing.  And I am receiving fine assistance each day.  I am a walking, living miracle.

"Life is a learning process.  You are a learner.  Seek answers to the puzzles of your life."

                     --Lailah Gifty Akita

"Out of difficulties grow miracles."

                     --Jean de la Bruyere

    

     

A New Story

I am opening to a new way of Being.  I am creating a new story.  I am believing that the Universe conspires to assist me, walking with me to my place of fulfillment.  I am no longer wearing the old, heavy cloak of disappointment.  I am taking on a mantle of lightness and joy, of peace and prosperity.  Each day will show me how this story is being created.  For now, I am trusting that my new life is under construction.

"Keep some room in your heart for the unimaginable."

                        --Mary Oliver    

Season of Letting Go

My story is one of going from victim to victory, from tragedy to triumph.  Amazing miracle, really.  I have kept my story to myself as I moved through a lifetime of creative, expressive, and alternative healing.  I now know that this holding of my story was out of  protection--first for my self and my process--then out of protection of other people who might not want to hear and know this story.  Today I am clear that I no longer need to to be the keeper of this story.  Every step forward for me has been a step toward freedom.  I am now fully free and whole.  For me to continue to carry this story would mean that I would be keeping myself bound by the secrecy.  Those days are over.  It's time for me to fully be who I AM, and this story has profoundly shaped my life and my being.  I now release this story into the world.

I know my story is hard to hear, disturbing, and will not be believed by everyone. My story begins in my 20's after a failed marriage, and after teaching 2 years of public school art.  I was living my "normal" young life.  I was enjoying the adventure of living by myself, pursuing further art studies at a university, and making a variety of good friendships.  Later, in my early 30's I was still on my own, creating my own artwork, working with a therapist on relationship issues, and enjoying the company of a wonderful group of supportive friends.  This combination of life circumstances created the safe space for a long-suppressed memory to make its way to the surface.  I became conscious of a one-time incident of sexual abuse committed against me by my father, when I was just a toddler.  My pain and angst were immediate.  Shame was the overriding shadow.  So many horrific feelings passed through along with turbulent sobs of pain and grief.  And then I was left with the long healing journey.  My process of healing covered decades, and it consisted of:  art as an expressive outlet for understanding the stages and steps on my path, therapy for sorting out the layers, and friends for spiritual support and helping me to see things in a different light.  As a result of  the creative and holistic healing I experienced with my friends, I was ushered through my trauma and pain.  My healing process eventually became self-sustaining, and my newly found strength allowed for much wisdom to come to me and through me.  A radical move in my later life to the Pacific Northwest has allowed for a final completion of this large healing of my self and soul.

With the help of Source, I have overcome all obstacles that resulted from the fallout of this early crushing blow to my spirit and tender self.  I can say with confidence that I am now a fully integrated, whole and happy person, living a peaceful and satisfying life.

So now begins the rest of my life.  I am embarking on a new path of expressing who I AM in the world, as part of the Universe.  This path is forming and unfolding as I focus on all of the things I love--art, fun, time to just BE, earth connecting, and all parts of Nature, especially plants and animals. I celebrate all of the wonder and bounty that surrounds us.  I love playing and creating with other people on their paths.  I love celebrating and honoring the days, seasons, cycles, patterns, and joys of our lives.  I love having an unlimited curiosity that brings me joy and humility as I explore all of Life.  And so it is that I partner with All That Is.