A New Story

I am opening to a new way of Being.  I am creating a new story.  I am believing that the Universe conspires to assist me, walking with me to my place of fulfillment.  I am no longer wearing the old, heavy cloak of disappointment.  I am taking on a mantle of lightness and joy, of peace and prosperity.  Each day will show me how this story is being created.  For now, I am trusting that my new life is under construction.

"Keep some room in your heart for the unimaginable."

                        --Mary Oliver    

Season of Letting Go

My story is one of going from victim to victory, from tragedy to triumph.  Amazing miracle, really.  I have kept my story to myself as I moved through a lifetime of creative, expressive, and alternative healing.  I now know that this holding of my story was out of  protection--first for my self and my process--then out of protection of other people who might not want to hear and know this story.  Today I am clear that I no longer need to to be the keeper of this story.  Every step forward for me has been a step toward freedom.  I am now fully free and whole.  For me to continue to carry this story would mean that I would be keeping myself bound by the secrecy.  Those days are over.  It's time for me to fully be who I AM, and this story has profoundly shaped my life and my being.  I now release this story into the world.

I know my story is disturbing and hard to hear.  My story begins in my 20's after a failed marriage, and after teaching 2 years of public school art.  I was living my "normal" young life.  I was enjoying the adventure of living by myself, pursuing further art studies at a university, and making a variety of good friendships.  Later, in my early 30's I was still on my own, creating my own artwork, working with a therapist on relationship issues, and enjoying the company of a wonderful group of supportive friends.  This combination of life circumstances created the safe space for a long-suppressed memory to make its way to the surface.  I became conscious of a one-time incident of sexual abuse committed against me by my father, when I was just a toddler.  My pain and angst were immediate.  Shame was the overriding shadow.  So many horrific feelings passed through along with turbulent sobs of pain and grief.  And then I was left with the long healing journey.  My process of healing covered decades, and it consisted of:  art as an expressive outlet for understanding the stages and steps on my path, therapy for sorting out the layers, and friends for spiritual support and helping me to see things in a different light.  As a result of this creative and holistic healing, I was ushered through my trauma and pain.  My healing process eventually became self-sustaining, and my newly found strength allowed for much wisdom to come to me and through me.  A radical move in my later life to the Pacific Northwest has allowed for a final completion of this large healing of my self and soul.

With the help of Source, I have overcome all obstacles that resulted from the fallout of this early crushing blow to my tender self and spirit.  I can say with confidence that I am now a fully integrated, whole and happy person, living a peaceful and satisfying life.

So now begins the rest of my life.  I am embarking on a new path of expressing who I AM in the world, as part of the Universe.  This path is forming and unfolding as I focus on all of the things I love--art, fun, time to just BE, earth connecting, and all parts of Nature, especially plants and animals. I celebrate all of the wonder and bounty that surrounds us.  I love playing and creating with other people on their paths.  I love celebrating and honoring the days, seasons, cycles, patterns, and joys of our lives.  I love having an unlimited curiosity that brings me joy and humility as I explore all of Life.  And so it is that I partner with All That Is.               

        

It's Time

The time has come to move ahead.  All things have fallen into place.  The place I have moved to has aligned me with my soul's purpose.  I am now a pure and true vessel for receiving, and for bringing my life's purpose into being.  I am the open bowl ready to receive guidance and next steps for this unfolding new chapter of my life.  All that I have lived has brought me to this place, but it is no longer needed for this new life beginning.  I have attained a mastery over the themes of my past.  I now bring truly everything that I AM to this task that is ahead.  I feel ready and filled with peace.  My life stretches out before me.

"The time is now.

The person is you."

     --Nido R. Qubein

"The present time has one advantage over every other--it is our own."

     --Charles Caleb Cotton           

New

The new is all about fresh beginnings.  It's about being born to a different life; a new set of circumstances.  It means I have finished a previous type of life, and I get to participate in a new and unknown life.  I am feeling grateful, humbled, and eager to move into this newness.  These days are about transitioning.  I am currently transitioning out of a life that no longer serves me, and into a life that will allow for the best expression of who I AM.  It feels like the best kind of do-over, and I am freely and easily stepping into a new adventure!  All good!

"The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun."

                                     --Chris McCandless   

  

Opening

As doors close in so many parts of my life, I realize there is another side to this process of letting go.  This other side has everything to do with being, and with opening to a new way of living my life.  That new way is one of listening and moving with the natural energy of my life essence.  It is a life of ease, joy, and doing things without effort.  As I stay open to this new life, a whole world is opening to me that I wasn't aligned with before.  It carries a wonderful feeling of lightness, free of burden.  Fully free... .

"Right at the end of the road, a new way will be revealed."

                        --Hiral Nagda

"And suddenly you know:  It's time to start something new and trust the magic of beginnings."

                        --Meister Eckhart

 

Growing Time

We are now in the Summer Solstice season.  This time is when all the plants and animals are growing toward the fullness of this year.  I am feeling this energy, too.  Spring gave us the focus of our growth for the year.  Now we are nurturing, watering, feeding, and tending to our unique projects for this year of large change.  I feel so much that my own main project is creating myself.  I am creating a new self that I haven't previously known. I am moving toward a better self.  A self that is more attuned to nature, to others around me, and especially to the new direction that my life wants to go.  It's a time of anticipation, openness, and definitely growth.  I am steadily watching this process, participating in the enjoyment of each day, and waiting to see what comes into full  bloom.  This is a definite growing time.  Enjoy and care for the steady growth of your own life.

"As long as we are persistent in our pursuit of our deepest destiny, we will continue to grow.  We cannot choose the day or time when we will fully bloom.  It happens in its own time."

                                  --Dennis Waitley      

Discernment

We are all traveling a unified path on the Earth.  We are here at the same time within the framework of an individual lifetime.  The diversity within this unified path is immense.  Our task is to recognize, and have awareness of, this collective path while also giving ourselves individual space and clarity within that unity.  We each have the ability to discern what serves us well and what does not.  It is up to each of us to hone our skills of knowing and growing.  To learn when it's time to stay and when it's time to let go and move forward.  All of these decisions guide, create, and become our life paths.  The best possible outcome may happen when we set the intention that our uniquely expressed paths will contribute to the unified whole and to the peaceful and harmonious linking of humanity.

"The most important part of discernment is pinpointing the forces to be reckoned with, both the constructive and destructive."

                                                      --Criss Jami                                                      

"Be courageous and face this moment in time consciously and with all the discernment and clarity within your power."

                                                      --James O'Dea

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