Go Ahead

Go ahead. Grow.  This is the season of the sap running.  Of the sleepy plants and animals waking from dormancy.  Plants green.  Animals resume their active lives.  Movement replaces stillness.  The deep energy of Earth pulses through all of us.

"I'm going to plant a heart in the earth

water it with love from a vein

I'm going to praise it with the push of muscle

and care for it in the sound of all dimensions.

I'm going to leave a heart in the earth

so it may grow and flower

a heart that throbs with longing

that adores everything green

that will be strength and nourishment for birds

that will be the sap of plants and mountains."

                     --Rosario Murillo

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Journeying

As I open to and listen for the path of my life, I am made more clearly aware that this journey is my own.  It can't belong to anyone except me.  This journey is mine to live out in the world, and no one else can fulfill what is mine to fulfill.  This has brought up a stark feeling of aloneness.  I don't feel alone in the sense that no one cares for me.  But alone in the realization and acceptance that I came into this world by myself, as myself; and I will leave this world by myself, as myself.   Divine Source is with me throughout my journey, whether I feel connected or not.  This feels like a humbling and reverent awareness of my own commitment to my life.

"...each of us has to inhabit his or her own soul in order to find out who he or she is and where the intimacy of his or her heart touches the world.  No one else can tell you that; the maps that others have are of no use.  Each life must find its true threshold, that edge where the individual gift fits the outer hunger and where the outer gift fits the inner hunger."                         --John O'Donohue

"The Journey you are on is deep and powerful.  Your roots go far below the surface of your appearances.  Your infancy, childhood, adulthood, and old age are phases in the development of a plant.  The root that produced the plant has produced other plants in the past, and will produce more plants in the future.  That root is your soul.  The plant is your life.  The plant grows, withers, and dies.  The root remains.  ...the root is more than the plant."                             --Gary Zukav

Super Moon

Our brains have internal biological clocks.  Much instinctual behavior is influenced by the changing seasons.  We respond physiologically to day/night schedules, global tides, lunar cycles.  Women in particular feel a physiological connection with lunar cycles and moods.  We have recently been in the middle of several changes to our circadian rhythms.  Today is the day of the vernal equinox, the first day of Spring.  We just changed our time schedules to Daylight Savings Time, which influences our sleep/wake cycles.  And this Super Perigee Moon represents the turning of an even larger cycle:  the moon's orbit around the earth.  The moon at this full stage is closer to the earth than it has been since 1993.  Events like this can put us in touch with our ancient history and primordial life.  All  are reminders of how large Life really is.

"Within the circles of our lives
we dance the circles of the years,
the circles of the seasons
within the circles of the years, 
the cycles of the moon 
within the circles of the seasons,
the circles of our reasons
within the cycles of the moon."
                --Wendell Berry

Creating

We are in the process of creating our lives.  I am personally amazed at the co-creation I am presently experiencing.  Co-creation with Divine Source means that I do a lot of asking and listening and living in the moment.  I have found a solid connection with Big Love, and that love is in full support of my heart's desire.  This process of working together to unfold my life holds a vitality that is new to me and filled with creative synergy.

"Where a life of less awareness once unfolded unconsciously, a new and conscious life now emerges.  New goals appear, and new ways of relating lead you to them.  New satisfactions, never before considered, fulfill in unexpected ways.  Meaning pervades all that you do, and joy carries you forward like a leaf on a river.

Your life is no longer yours alone.  You are a companion of the Universe.  All of Life is your partner and together you create powerfully."              --Gary Zukav

Abundance

This week I was visited by a buffalo in one of my dreams.  In the teachings of native people, Buffalo brought the gift of prayer to humans.  The buffalo was also the major source of sustenance to the Plains Indians.  The invitation from buffalo is to show gratitude for whatever comes to your life to support you.  I have certainly had this experience of abundance coming to me recently.  Not in ways that I would have imagined or predicted, but in ways that were certainly sustaining.  I have prayed for the arrival of abundance, and those requests have been answered well.  I feel grateful, and I experience wonder as these mysterious workings unfold.

"The medicine of buffalo is prayer, gratitude, and praise for that which has been received.  Buffalo medicine is also knowing that abundance is present when all relations are honored as sacred, and when gratitude is expressed to every living part of creation."                       --Jamie Sams and David Carson, Medicine Cards 

Change

Living with change is not a comfortable prospect.  I always want something good to stay the same.  But that would mean zero growth.  Change is a constant.  It feels like my task of this present time is to become more friendly with the notion of change.  Not just to tolerate it, but to embrace it like a friend.  Especially, I am supposed to learn not to fear change.  Even though up until now that fear has been hardwired into my primitive, reptilian brain.  My alert responses are activated.  I'm watching for potential danger; threats; mishaps.  What an exhausting way to live.  I am being encouraged now to open to change.  To lean into the process of change as a creative unfolding of good for my life.  Just the sound of that feels better already.  Maybe I'll try going with the flow.

"There is no state of enlightened retirement, no experience of awakening that places us outside the truth of change.  Everything breathes and turns in its cycles.  The moon, the stock market, our hearts, the wheeling galaxies all expand and contract with the rhythm of life...  It is only by letting go into this truth that we awaken to that which is timeless, the reality of freedom."                  
                                                                         -Jack Kornfield 

Being

I am being--living in the moment.  Life is expressing itself through this moment.  I am knowing nothing more than this moment.  I am living life straight out.  Trusting that this moment is as it is meant to be.  It is who I am.  I am living me, being me, doing me.  Being... sweet moments of exquisite awareness and attention.

"A new way is one in which being is more important than doing.  Doing follows being and is an expression of it, rather than a frantic, aimless motion powered by fear or guilt through orders from outside.  Doing in a new way is an act of love, which is the physical manifestation of the spiritual connection among all things."                      -Sunlight, from Being:  Guide to a New Way